My relationship with Eric

Yep ….here he is ….

But is our relationship becoming a tad obsessive? ….is it equatable and reciprocal? …. does he give as much as he takes and vice versa? ….is it a relationship of growth or energy sapping?

He looks innocent enough doesn’t he? ….Looks a bit like a diary or journal ….which is what I thought he was  going to be …….starting a blog was a little tongue in cheek really …I mean look at the title:D:D …..I think I was feeling a little angry and frustrated myself at the time ….rushed off my feet and too knackered to think also:D:D


but WHOOOOOOSH!!!! …..I feel as though I’ve been thrown into a whirling  cyber ‘thought’ universe circling the globe …I’m reading and reading and reading ….and my inbox is getting clogged up with THOUSANDS of posts …am going to have to clear it …ration it in some way …but how?

It’s SO fascinating …people’s thoughts and creativity ..uncensored …all ages …nationalities’s BEAUTIFUL …mostly

I guess like most relationships early doors …it’s wonderful but you have to get a grip and not get too carried away …that initial WHOOOOOSH settles down …do you then find a compatibility that can be built on? ….but in this case how?
How do you sort the wheat from the chaff…is there ANY chaff?
Everyone deserves a voice

But I guess it’s like all relationships in life … who do you trust?
Which voices out there can you rely on? Or is it safer to just keep a distance? ….is this how the ‘Zenofbeing’ felt I wonder?

It’s not been 6 months yet …and have been blown away by it all …I started writing because my world had become insane …OUR world had become insane …a kind of ‘self therapy’ like my diary used to be ….but is blogging making that feel any better or worse?

Is Eric sitting there in his slightly flamboyant jacket a force for good or ill?

Hmmmmmm ….I guess it’s like all scientific and technological advancements ….it depends how we CHOOSE to use it ….and like EVERYTHING in life we must endeavour to find a ‘balance’:)

Neutralise ……

I have never claimed to be ‘brain of Britain’ or anything ….

Just an ordinary working Mum trying  to get by as  best she can
….maybe with a few off the wall ideas but hey:D:D:D

The neighbourhood where I live and work is mixed like most urban areas in the uk

No that’s not strictly true ….THIS particular neighbourhood is mostly made up of approximately 40% white Christian/Agnostic 40% Muslim mostly of Pakistani or Indian heritage but not ALL …there’s a smattering of white and African also ….there’s a few Hindus…and we also have Irish, Bosnians, Hungarians. Polish and more recently some folks from Syria added to the mix ….and I grew up a bit farther down the road on the outskirts of the next city where there was also ….Italians,Astonians, Afro Caribeans and a small Chinese community …..different religions too ….I think I mentioned in a previous post how as a kid I was brought up loosely Christian yet used to pop into the Sikh temple every now and then to enjoy a good meal and a chat:D:D:D ….actually I guess it is pretty mixed isn’t it?:D:D:D ….All in all tho ….it makes for a pretty interesting community if you ask me:D:D:D

And yep ….we’ve had our ‘community cohesion’ issues …..particularly going back to my childhood where overt racism was commonplace …..and more recently some tense moments where there seemed to be a collective holding of the breath but by and large folks pretty philosophical … demonstrating how far we have come I feel …but STILL no room for complacency …The MOST recent events being the attack on Paris …..and then the UK joining the Syrian war ( which I personally voted against)….Syria is being used as a battleground between the Arab states and the West BOTH as accountable as each other in my view…..PLUS the complication of Turkey and Russia buddying up and diving in there ….although you can’t really blame Turkey …..both Turkey AND Greece ….have been left out in the cold and are now SERIOUSLY floundering …’s barely being reported in the media …it’s just an ABSOLUTE  bloody mess …there will be NO winners and will end up with all sides having to pack it in eventually get round the table and reach some kind of compromise ….if there’s a table left of course ….it’s frustrating ….anger inducing ….and MORE than heartbreaking

Anyway ….I just wanted to say that for me it means nothing really where you are from ….what religion you are or none….whether you are rich or poor ….male….female ….old ….young … …white …or skybluepink with yellow dots on ….I take people as I find them ….we are no ‘better’ or ‘worse’ than each other ….I AM interested in people’s motivations tho …..the reason I am saying this is because during my blogging experience ( started in October) there have been a couple of occasions where quite bitter, nasty posts have found their way into my inbox….it’s not quite clear whether they are just generally so …folk venting their anger and frustration …and they have a right to do so ….free speech and all that ….or whether it’s specific …I think the term is ‘trolling’ although why anyone would want to do that to me I don’t know so I guess it’s the former

BUT..if anyone into that IS reading this …keep reading if you like in fact read MORE blogs …..

For every nasty, bitter post there are 100’s ….1000’s …. millions of fascinating and inspiring ones out there …..folks from all over the globe …’s AMAZING …..yep ….we’re ALL different yet remarkably similar too …I reckon there are sooooooo many good people out there …learning from each other …it’s DEFINATELY enough to neutralise ANY poison:)


A couple of recent out of the blue examples when driving home ….

‘Hmmmmm if cows weren’t given all those drugs in their food they’d probably have a body more like a racehorse….be able to run a bit better’

:D:D:D ..Hmmmm yes I know ….I had just pulled in for petrol , bought a bottle of milk and slung it on his lap ….kept my eyes FIRMLY fixed on the road:D:D:D


Mum …why is space black?’

Reply ..IS it black?’

Turns his head to look me square in the face …or as best you can when I’m driving:D:D:D….narrows his eyes …pauses a moment ….

‘Hmmmmmm …..yes….maybe it just LOOKS black …maybe it’s just our perception’

Reply . …perhaps you should check it out on the web …get a scientific explanation and let me know what you find out’

Thing is …have got my own views …but am not a scientist and wouldn’t want to blow his mind….I worry enough about the kid as it is:D:D:D

Where has the ‘Zen of being’ gone!

It’s Friday ….have been scrolling down ..reading posts as you do ….and suddenly thought …hmmmm haven’t read one from the ‘Zen of Being’ for a while ….and THE WHOLE SITE HAS BEEN TAKEN DOWN!!!?

God! ….does this often happen? ….folk just disappear from the bloggersphere???

and if your still out there ….can you please get your backside back on ….LOVED your posts and so did many others:)

How Single Payer Healthcare Works and What’s Been Going on in Britain

I work for the NHS …..this is spot on!!!
It has felt like a deliberate trashing the last few years ….a determined dismantling to PROVE inefficiency and thus privatise ….not only is privatisation more costly ….private ‘care’ companies tend to cherry pick what and who they will provide for ….we used to have universal healthcare here … not any more ….it’s a postcode lottery at best. The only other thing I would add to your post is that the NHS like all public sector services is ACCOUNTABLE to the public …..this is not the case in the private sector whose motivations are to make a PROFIT out of ‘care’

Benjamin Studebaker

Today I’d like to get at some of the deeper intricacies of single payer healthcare systems by telling you a story about what’s going on with Britain’s National Health Service (NHS). If you’re American, this post will shed some light on how Bernie Sanders’ system potentially works. If you’re British, this is where you’ll get my view on the junior doctors’ strike and what the conservatives are trying to do with the NHS.

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Oops forgot the pics ….

Hmmm is this the vehicle of choice of a bona fide …’Boy from the hood’ tough guy  in the making?:D:D:D

Yep ….it’s a SKODA ….full spec tho …and yes I transformed it into ‘The Meadow’ myself ……..cheer up these often bleak looking streets of a winters morning …

And … I look at it now ….maybe I AM some kind of urban hippy after all:D:D:D