Blogging Off!!!

So ….this seems a fitting place to end ‘Blog On!!!’ …..need to hunker down …focus on looking for another job and spending quality time with the boys when I can….they’re growing up …it’s natural …I struggle with adapting more than they:D:D:D

I’m not really sure what ‘Blog On’ has been about:D:D:D

I thought it was going to be an extension of my personal journal writing really ….just rambling as is ….what’s been a bit shocking tho is that it started answering back:D:D:D     But in a way that’s probably been the best part …so Thankyou to all you folks who have checked in on this, what must look like a rather odd and amateurish site ….a little glimpse into ‘the head of one northern soul’:D:D:D

And I Thankyou for allowing me to dip my toe into the Bloggosphere and sample YOUR thoughts and creativity too ….it really HAS been reassuring ….the blogs I am following ….regardless of where you are in the world …what age,  gender, race, class, ability, religion or none ….apart from the language barrier ( and I’m ashamed to say MOST of you have better English than I) …yep …if you strip away all the barriers we ALL pretty much want AND appreciate the same things in life ….it’s NOT about ‘stuff’ is it? …..get BEYOND the ‘stuff’ …

Maybe blogging IS a modern way of sending a message in a bottle …we certainly live in interesting times ..a time of great change but I STILL feel there are more positives than negatives out there ..there’s ALWAYS turbulence before things settle down

I think when I started ‘Blog On’ I also thought it might be there for posterity for the boys …like Emma and Alice’s letters for me …thought maybe when they are adults and I’m no longer around they might stumble upon it and be able to hear my voice:D:D:D …..Hmmmmm they’re boys tho so maybe not interested ….maybe Lottie then:D:D:D

ANYWAY ….I don’t think that’s likely …Blogs aren’t really like that are they? ….well MINE certainly isn’t …it sticks and blocks and stuff disappears as it is and it’s only been around a year:D:D:D ……I bet it’s a case of if you don’t use your blog for a month or so it just disappears and you get that black and white crowd scene stating ‘This blog no longer exists’ which seems to happen out of the blue from time to time …..hmmmm think I’ll check it once a month or so ….test it like to see if it’s still there ….or maybe not …it’s best not to know ..it’s bad enough when a ‘post’ disappears into the ether ..I’ve got a bit attached to ‘Blog On’ …..and I don’t want anyone nicking the title either …it’s part of my identity now …GOD listen at me:D:D:D:D ….it’s DEFINATELY time to go ….draw the line:D:D:D

What was it Zohra said? ‘This life … endless conversation with yourself …silent in sanity …audible in madness’ Hmmmmmmmm yes ….have spent a bit of time outdoors on the hill this weekend ….recognise the need to have a bit of ‘silence in sanity’ it does you good …that reassuring ‘nothing’ from where …if we’re REALLY lucky …we might be able to ‘listen to what we can’t hear’ for the clutter to quote pooh:D:D:D

Oh …it’ll all turn out in the wash

This is Blog On!!!
Still 1/2 a face…and yes of COURSE it’s the better 1/2:D:D …a year older…a lot wiser…but this time in colour …albeit autumn…ish:D:D:D ….yes ..yes ok had just whipped off the reading glasses ….you can only get by with squinting for so long you know before you have to admit defeat:D:D:D

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Where was I? …
Ah yes …
Blogging Off!!!
It’s been one unexpected learning curve but this is where Blog On ends …best wishes to all ….respect to you AND myself:)

The Power of Pooh final installment ….

So ….here we are at the end of the series …and in actual fact I NEED to implement its practice in some way:D:D:D ….and maybe more than just in the investment of my next notebook ….I’m thinking of a holistic lifestyle choice SERIOUSLY …I would LOVE to get all creative …wouldn’t it be WONDERFUL to build your own house like that? ….Hmmmmm yes somewhere near the sea would be just PERFECT:):):):)

(I’m loosing it aren’t I? …no no …am not …others are doing it so it’s not as outrageous as it might seem)  ….is there anyone out there who would like to start up a pooh project that I could join maybe? :D:D:D

There’s a book too ….yes indeed there IS!!! ….one of my early posts states it as one of my favorites …it’s called …..Ta DaaAH!!!


Now you may have read it already …it’s quite a popular book …it explains the concept of the ancient Chinese philosophy of Tao through the children’s book character ‘Winnie the Pooh’ ….basically at the time of publication it was making the concept more accessible to a western audience who because of our somewhat toxic lifestyle tended to struggle with it …like Yoga …complex in its simplicity ….simple in its complexity …the art of just ‘be’ ing ….if only we were ‘ALLOWED’ to eh?

ANYWAY …it’s a FABULOUS little book …the sequel being the Te of Piglet …kind of rounding off the yin/yan thing …although the second book is not quite as good if you ask me ….however, once read you can tackle a translation of the authentic texts if you like …it really ISN’T heavy if you enter the spirit of it :):):):):)

OK here’s a few quotes from ‘The Tao of Pooh’ just to get you into the spirit so to speak …


THERE!!! …..are you getting it now?:D:D:D

SO ….there we are ….I’ve kind of condensed this little series from what it first was in the pre blog days:D:D:D ….chopped a bit out and updated a bit too …but ANYWAY I’m sure you ‘get’ the gist ….and WELL DONE!!! if you have actually checked out any of these posts ….I hope you’ve enjoyed them ….got you ‘contemplating’ a little maybe?

What I …and many, many, many others LOVE about the ancient philosophies …the Yoga Sutra’s ( Indian origin) …….The Tao ( Chinese) ….Aboriginal, Native American,African and Pagan too I believe….ANYWAY they strip away all the hype …explain ‘life’for want of a better word in a way that takes it down to its very essence ….’essential’ teachings if you like ….the very ‘fundamentals’ that money CAN’T buy ……..you don’t NEED a figurehead to ‘hero worship’ or effigies and paraphanalia ….it helps if you have a teacher ….the best ‘teachers’ are practitioners who simply ‘guide’ like my original yoga teacher:):):):):):)…and I am STILL trying to find a replacement ..hmmmm but maybe I’m trying too hard
Anyway …forget Religous effigies, Designer Labels, Celebrity, Politicians, Money all that ‘stuff’ to blindly ‘worship’ ….Ok then don’t if you don’t want to BUT if you want to ‘worship’ anything …hold something in ‘reverence’ it might as well be THIS:D:D:D


…..as not only does it contain its own little universe of organisms …it can be utilised by man in MANY ways that are totally harmless to the ecosystem, tying it in with BOTH ancient and modern…think the aboriginal painting in a past post which depicts what modern science is starting to PROVE ….AND because we are ALL full of shit ..we HAVE to take a LITTLE time out daily to contemplate and let go …yes it could therefore, be safely said that accessing the power of pooh comes from within :D:D:D 😉

Phew ..that’s better all done and dusted then ..and no I haven’t just been for a Pooh …have been out today marching up hills in the fresh air tho just ‘be’ing LOVELY …have been fed and watered and ….mmmmmmmmm ….ok might go and contemplate now:D:D:D ….and then settle down to read:):):):)

Ok …..So!!!

I should be feeling like this 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😄😄

But instead feel a bit 😔

Well no ….ok …..maybe😶

That hamster has been running at full pelt the last couple of weeks!!! …….saw the situation and ……ok ……this is the problem ……if everybody with a vote just did a little bit …..just did what they can ……well …….well ……we would have a more dynamic and vibrant democratic process ……if more people with the privelage of university education, instead of purely using their intellect to feather their own nest gave a little back ….SOMTHING!!! …..then maybe ….maybe……
As you know I volunteered to help out at our local by-election on behalf of the Labour Party ….mostly due to the circumstances of why there needed to be one in the first place ….because we had a vacuum which felt tangible and allsorts was going on……so I’ve been doing a bit of telephone and pounding the streets work, as has one of the other ex Wondergirls this last week :):):):):)

Now ……SOME folks may be a little cynical about Tracy Brabin  ….BUT I would say to those people ‘where were YOU?’ ….the woman put her hat in the ring ….not an easy thing to do I would imagine as someone like Jo Cox is very rare indeed with IMPOSSIBLE shoes to fill …Tracy herself acknowledges this …she was born and raised in the area and YES moved on to better herself and persue a career …. and good for her too …there is nothing wrong in THAT ….and YES she’s an actress by profession which is very different to working at grassroots  … and yes I guess she seems a bit ‘actressy’ at the moment ….but she’s BOUND to ….she WILL find her feet tho …her heart is in the right place …it’s a new job …no’one has ALL skills ….she’ll develop and get into her stride …she’s going to be just fine:):):):):)

AND the election results just blasted those 9 other groups out of the water …a pretty good turnout at the polling stations too …so it just goes to show the VAST majority of people care and want unity regardless of age, gender, race, religious affiliation OR ( in this case) political stance:):):):):):)

But guess what?

Right now feel exhausted ….THERES a suprise I hear you cry …hmmmmm yes I guess my knackeredness surfaces periodically here on Blog On!:D:D:D

ANYWAY ….this morning we were all given letters at work …phase 3 of this ‘transformation’ that started last October and is apparantly due for completion end of March NEXT year( Hmmmmm I said it was a good use of terminology didn’t I?) …Anyway it also means the last remaining ‘Wondergirls’ and ‘M’ are being split up to different numbered areas …I am moving to ‘area 1 ‘ ….no I am NOT kidding….when asked which geographical area’s these meant and if indeed there would be bases was informed ..’we don’t know yet but should be given more details in the coming weeks’

Bumped into fellow Ex Wondergirl in passing who looked equally jaded today …the usual ..’Hey ..y’alright’ …but in knackered tones followed by a half laugh and hug

Hmmmmmmmm ….you know ….when I started this blog …exactly a year ago this week actually …I had a plan …have hit a number of obstacles tho …not least being pretty much stoney broke financially ( and I’ve worked all my life which doesn’t sound right does it? ….I’m sure there are others out there …not quite using food banks but no luxuries really …can’t afford the dentist or hairdressers for example ….am I one of the ‘working poor’?) ….so I’m thinking ….where next? ….do I just carry on as per waiting for the axe to drop on my head (which it surely will sooner or later …it kind of feels like things keep being reduced and we are merely holding the fort …or trying to pop plasters on gaping wounds )  ..or should I bail out? ..to what tho?

Ps) I said bail out not give up …want somthing different but WHAT? ….don’t want to become a full lone working android tho and don’t even think I CAN!!! ….I like my own space to a degree but in this line of work it feels tooooo isolating AND I don’t like the lone working tech which is allegedly for safety but feels ‘big brotherish’not to mention having to work somewhere thus far described as ‘area 1’ which if it’s where I think it is will laugh my head off …and I CERTAINLY don’t want to get into local party politics,  which would be just as bad if not WORSE!!!

GOD …I’m burning out aren’t I? ….is this burn out? ….don’t remember feeling like this when I was younger ….it’s like I’m racing around trying to keep my head above water ..DESPERATELY looking for those dandilions in the crack in the pavement but feeling someone is spraying the weed killer ….Hmmmm should I just hand my notice in on Monday? …would that be grossly irresponsible? …well yes, probably

I want a peaceful next phase of my life tho …is that too much to ask?..is it an age thing?…not asking for too much materially but somthing without all these barriers….well we’d ALL like not to have to struggle, I’m kinda used to not having much tho so SURELY can just have a little peace…PLEASE?:)

Hmmmm is this going to be a flop onto the cushion not getting dressed ….march off up the hill ….or consult with the mute swan therapist …weekend I wonder?…maybe all 3:D:D:D

Dirty Tricks

Well …..in and among the usual this week I have also been one of those  irritating callers canvassing on behalf of a political party ….yes I joined an eclectic but very nice bunch of people giving up their evenings for the cause:D:D:D

It IS a cause worth it tho under the circumstances   …..no’one expected or wanted a local bi-election at this time ….we tragically lost a remarkable MP which has left many in the community reeling with shock and overwhelming sadness BUT fortunately there is another very suitable and able candidate stepping up

SO …to the phones it was ….but get this …I took one call to a chap who said…. ‘Well I’m not voting for YOU lot after THAT leaflet’ …..which puzzled me as I’ve been leafleting also …nothing untoward about the leaflets I thought …just a little about the candidate, her  views on priorities in the area and an e’mail address for folk to contact if they so wished.

As I was talking to this chap tho, one of my colleagues opposite started waving his arms to attract my attention saying there was a bogus leaflet going round ….I relayed this to the chap I was speaking to and put my colleague on to explain further and see if he could get any additional information.

Afterwards he told me they had been informed earlier in the day that a leaflet was being posted around the district, alleging to be from the Labour Party and being inflammatory in content and tone.

‘SICK’ was my response, as I’m sure you will agree ….not only had our MP ( and I cannot overestimate her qualities as both a person and future political figure) been murdered BUT someone …..presumably one of the other 9 contestants, had gone to the trouble of printing fake leaflets to undermine her successor and the party as a whole

The other mainstream UK political parties have stood back and not contested the seat in a wonderful gesture of respect for Jo and the special circumstances …but THIS!!!??

It was on reading that the new candidate Tracy had 9 fringe groups ( some particularly nasty ones) putting up people for election that I decided to help out …didn’t expect anyone would stoop SO low though.

ANYWAY ….on the whole the telephone canvassing has proved a positive experience …I ( and others) have even managed to persuade Tory voters to vote for Tracy in the bi-election on the 20th October.

So I’m feeling heartened …which I must confess I wasn’t after leafleting the other weekend ….I also witnessed and broke up a fight between 2 groups of lads on Tuesday …broad daylight at the side of a busy road near the college about 12 around Matts age 2 of them REALLY going at each other whilst the rest looked on …and yes the group was split on racial lines ..one group Asian and the other white …it took me back to behaviour of football hooligans when I was a kid …I swear I haven’t seen stuff like this for YEARS and thought all that was history and we had all moved on

However …despite all this I DO remain heartened …we are SO lucky to have another really strong candidate ..

Oh …and apparantly Jezza himself has been in town today …missed him tho as too buzy ..never mind perhaps it’s just as well ….wouldn’t want to behave like a sycophantic teenager with a pop idol :D:D:D …..no …no …just kidding
Anyway fingers crossed and watch this space:)

G’night

Thailand’s King Bhumibol Dies At Age 88 – BuzzFeed News

We don’t know the full significance of this yet. But there will certainly be one. Particularly for the Thai people for whom he reigned as monarch for over 70 years …..

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https://www.buzzfeed.com/meghara/thailands-king-bhumibol-dies-at-age-88?utm_term=.iypZqdYX9&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=News%20-%201014%20Friday&utm_content=News%20-%201014%20Friday+CID_92f11759e11977e6a4a322ec118bb9dd&utm_source=BuzzFeed%20Newsletters#.eoEq6B1n3

Ha!!! …..seems I am not alone

So ….the post preceding this ( or should I say see link below)  made my day ….YES the NOTEBOOK  is apparantly alive and kicking …the beautiful, tangible paper variety that you can hold in your hand, pop in your pocket and have an organic relationship with that flows and is not going to stick ..block ..or disappear into the ether …

I KNEW it …have ALWAYS loved them, and according to the article they are big with the tech head and creative types …HUZZAH!!!   I MUST tell the boys :D:D:D

There’s somthing about a notebook isn’t there? …and it’s funny how we choose them …at one time I was into the minimalist, japanesey organic paper kind that had that woody paper smell …these days I seem to be going for the opposite extreme …the more luxurious and flamboyant the better:D:D:D

Now we ALL know you shouldn’t judge a book by its cover …but in the case of notebooks I feel it’s safe to throw THAT rule STRAGHT out of the window …its no good buying a cheap WH Smith pack of four ….it’s an intimate relationship we have with our notebooks …we have to LOVE it:):):):)……

Now I’ve posted a pic of Eric in his sophisticated SLIGHTLY flamboyant jacket before …(yes I even buy my IPad nice jackets to soften his cold hard edges) ….WELL …get a load of THIS!!!

Yes …it’s my current notebook …GEORGEOUS is’nt it? …it has a smooth, shiney texture like warm chrome …and the pattern and little jewels are in relief….YES …you can close your eyes and feeeeeeel them …and the cover snaps shut with a little magnet …well ..more a gentle little  ‘thunk’ than a ‘snap’ ….it’s very tactile ….BEAUTIFUL:):):):)

Hmmmmmm …if anyone looked inside they would  be a bit disappointed tho …it’s FULL of jottings,arrows and scribbles that only I can decipher:D:D:D

I would LOVE to get comments from any other notebook users out there …see if the activity is indeed flourishing and why …maybe send a pic of your current notebook

Oh dearie me ….have just read this back and am laughing

What a ‘saddo’ am I?:D:D:D

Oh well …maybe there are similar ‘saddo’s’ out there

‘Saddo’s …do not be ashamed …be bold and come forth …share your notebook experience

Come out of the closet and UNITE say I :D:D:D

21st century thinking …..joining the dots

I’ve mentioned before about some of the up and coming scientists and engineers …..so here I’ve posted 3 links to Mehaks blog ‘The Quantum Thought’ …..not only is she clever ….a pragmatic scientist/mathematician but she’s a creative too …I LOVE her posts ….particularly the drawings of the microbiology of the brain ….I fancy a blown up print of one to replace my rather faded Jackson Pollock ….SERIOUSLY I could look at them all day ….and if she ever got the time to do them in color ……POW!!!:D:D:D

ANYWAY please take a look …you don’t need to be a scientist or mathmetician to appreciate them ….beautiful!!!:):):):) ….it’s facinating that even MY brain has got that miniscule lightening storm firing off in it …..well ….it doesn’t feel to have much of a one today but STILL:D:D:D