Where are we now?

Hmmmmmm ……..

Ok ….let’s not forget that the outcome of the ‘Brexit’ vote here in the Uk AND the election of …..of ……I can’t even say it I’m sorry:D:D:D …..

ANYWAY yes the election of the new president of the USA …..in both cases it was by a WHISKER ….but a whisker none the less ….so there’s no point shouting Boooooo now …..ok protest ….at least make it known it’s a whisker ….BUT what’s it all about?

Now …..when I started ‘Blog On!!!’ I think I said ‘The’ world …’My’ world didn’t make sense anymore:D:D:D …..Ok ….Ok ….Hmmmmmm yes well:D:D:D …..and try as I might I don’t seem to be able to keep my fingers to myself and STOP this bloody blog….shut the fuck up ….as I’m not sure if it’s healthy for me and I don’t know why I’m doing it:D:D:D

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CONFUSION!!!

Yep CONFUSION ….a cynicism ….mistrust ….think of a species that banged it’s head …said ‘Ouch THAT hurt’ ….but rather than change tac just keeps banging and banging it’s head because there doesn’t seem to be a different way of doing things …there IS but it takes GUTS ….it takes GUTS and a will to see beyond the ‘self’ and accept it involves a HUGE shift in thinking ….maybe it’s ‘conciousness’ ….or maybe we work better when we are UNconcious:D:D:D

It’s about ‘communication’ isn’t it?

And I don’t mean our social media profiles going BLAAAAAAAH!!!

There ARE …IS ….some amazing stuff going on out there ….little pockets …..but you’ve got to get beneath the layers of BLAAAAAH!!!

Like it or not …..aware or not …..we are ALL going thro a significant period of change ….the fearmongerers are still holding on tho ….BY A WHISKER!!!!

We don’t seem to know what’s real and not anymore do we?….well yes I can agree things are often a matter of ‘perspective’ …..but did  Trump the chameleon merely expose a ‘truth’…there ARE similarities to Nigel Farrages ‘Brexit’ campaign  ……Maybe Corbyn too although COMPLETELY different motivations ….ALL caught on a wave of hunger for change …

And talking of ‘change’  did you SEE the President of the US’s acceptance speech??? ..the TOTAL  persona change on winning the election was INCREDIBLE!!! …talk about ‘Reality T.V show’ ……a VERY cynical game played ON the people …..and it all seems to have confused EVERYONE ….world leaders congratulating as per ‘etiquette’….are they INSANE???…what would YOU do if someone holding such views became your child’s new  headteacher???
And poor Obama …..he’s had to spend HOURS handing over to a man who ……who…….

Bloody Hell this is CRAZY!!!:D:D:D

I STILL reckon Obama is one of the good guys …..

A cynical game show …..a world that encourages Psychopathy ……led by a Psychopath who’se not even bothering to hide it!!!hmmmmmm it’s a cold and joyless route to go down tho  ……SURELY folk see that

PSYCHOPATHY …GOOGLE IT!!!

Are we REALLY going to just watch the whisker become the whole damned cat!!!?

‘What’s Going On’ …..update

Now you may remember I posted a link to good ole Marvins 1972 track of the same name last Sunday ….if you didn’t listen do so …it’s a beautiful track and maybe even more pertinant ….sadly ….today

But things kind of ‘evolve’ over time don’t they? …..There is usually some kind of catalyst that kicks off a chain reaction that maybe only becomes apparant after the event ..BUT thanks to today’s technology things seem to be gathering pace …people are maybe better ‘informed’ …..or can be if they look beneath the veneer of what they are being served:)

SO …it just so happens that on Fri …The 17th Conference in memory of Steve Beko took place in South Africa …for those who don’t know …Steve was a student and antipartheid campaigner …whose imprisonment kicked off the mass movement which became unstoppable …leading to the fall of apartheid ….black people given the vote …full democracy AT LAST ( and it’s not THAT long ago)

It’s really sad isn’t it …because …maybe I’m naive …but certainly up untill the war on Iraq …it felt here as tho things WERE changing for the better in terms of race relations and Britain becoming a multicultural society ….a kind of blending …a slooooooooow process admittedly….

Anyway ….what I think started a backward change here was the HUGE protests against the war on Iraq which were ignored by our prime minister …as Mr Blair went scurrying off after Ole Dubya as he appeared to IMEDIATELY stick on his cowboy hat and hype up the war talk within HOURS of the twin towers attack in New York

Now I’m not belittling that attack in ANY way …it was a gross atrocity that killed thousands of innocent people ….but we STILL don’t know who was behind that attack …the US and UK going to war was based on Iraq having weapons of mass destruction which turned out not to be the case ….but too late …Dubya an arrogant man who had never travelled beyond US borders before ignored the UN ….declaring  WAR …and Blair ……against most people at the time’s wishes …threw us all in too …causing great tension in communities here and possibly …probably …increased radicalisation of some British Muslims.

The Blair Labour Goverment proved to be a bit of a disappointment really ….yes most of us accepted the Labour Party needed to change to get elected way back in 1997 ….become more ‘press and big business savvy’ but it ended up being not too dissimilar to the Tory’s

Of course we all remember the Global Financial Markets going into free fall in 2008 …when corruption at the great Leaman Brothers bank was exposed …..and ping …ping ….ping …the dots were joined and the whole capitalist system exposed as a house of cards …a numbers game …which employed people to work in a corporate vacuum …a dog eat dog world …a game of monopoly where the winner takes all because they DESERVE it …’Buggar the rest ..as who gives a shit ANYWAY?’

All this was JUST before Obama became president of the US ….a moment of joy that resonated around the world ….here was a man of integrity …not a businessman but someone who was well educated …had been a public servant in downtown Chicago ….the Americans saw him as Black ….in this household he was seen as a product of the future …his heritage drawing things together ….Black African Father of Muslim background ….White American Mother of Chritian background …and brought up in Hawaii where its a RIGHT mixed bunch:D:D:D

For a moment it seemed something NEW was going to happen ….the banks held to account and a more considered …even approach to world affairs

Now I personally STILL love Obama …I think he did his best under the circumstances …and let’s face it he has to be the ‘coolest’ world leader there has EVER been …plus he and Michelle seem solid as a rock ….been thro thick and thin ….an example to us all ….BUT ….I think what has come to light now is that ‘democracy’ is a sham ….it is the Global Corporate Elite who hold the power …the banks and large financial/business institutions have come out of all this unscathed and it is us ordinary people AROUND THE WORLD who are suffering …..in the richer countries like the US and UK whole areas are being desimated …..investment to maintain infrastructures like health, education, housing and transport being ‘cut’ and businesses folding or pulling out of the poorer areas ….you might argue that even some whole countries are being held to ransom ….

Remember Venezuala anyone?

Yep ….that country in South America that produced all those wonderful and dynamic musicians ….yes it is still on the map if you would care to look ….although you may be forgiven for not thinking so

So here we are …..we’ve had the recent referendum on European membership here in the UK ….the result being to pull out and draw up the drawbridge ( by a whisker of a majority 52% v 48%) this has caused rifts in communities with increases in racist crime …not to mention the murder of a local MP and upcoming politician who had the potential to be a great reforming figure on the world stage ( I for one am STILL struggling with this)

And across the pond ..as they say …we have an ABSOLUTE  madman ( and uber rich one) who is blatantly stirring things up!!!

And as for the Saudi’s? ……god knows what part they are playing ….the paranoid Chinese and Russian governments too …WHAT A MESS!!!

I tell you it’s a good job I meditated with Mr Modi this morning ….ok ….NO’ONE is perfect but you can usually ‘trust’ a yoga practitioner …..at least you can usually have a TWO way conversation with one

ANYWAY ….back to my initial reference …I suppose to the Black Civil Rights Movement in the US during the 60’s

RiGHT NOW we seem to be moving backward on ALL fronts don’t we? ….with all the rifts going on in the US and the shooting of 2 innocent boys we now have the ‘BLACK LIVES MATTER’ movement

Also on Friday there was the 17th  annual Steve Beko memorial lecture in South Africa ….the guest speaker being Angela Davis who was a leading figure in the ORIGINAL Civil Rights movement in the US …I would urge anyone looking in to watch this speech in its ENTIRETY and really LISTEN ( it starts about 1/4 way thro the film …but you can sit thro all the intro’s if you want)

https://youtu.be/Fb_TpOTjmM8


As I was listening it took me back to Youbi in Nigeria’s post earlier this year ..where the students had been peacefully protesting about student fee hikes …one of her friends got shot …the crowd dispersed and the college closed down for a month

My mind then went to the student protests in Venezuela which again started peacefully …turned violent and led to the total communication shut down

Zip …Zip …back to the Arab Spring of 2012

Zip …Zip …Zip to the student protests here in the UK and the ‘Occupy movent’

The thing is …as Angela says in her speech …yes things seem to have gone backward in terms of ‘Black Lives’just now …we don’t want to loose the momentum since the Black Civil Rights Movement of the 60’s ….not let it be blurred

RIGHT at this moment tho …’freedom’ is being dictated by a Capitalist Elite on Racial, Class and Gender lines …a very rich and minority ‘elite’ dictating to the majority and CREATING division and a culture of fear

As I said in one of my previous posts …you don’t have to be female to support feminism …feminists are NOT anti men nor do we want to BE men …it’s about equalising the balance

Therefore you don’t have to be black to support ‘Black lives matter’ …it’s about resetting the ‘balance’ from the historical ( and current) white supremacy model ….there IS recognition that white folk in poor areas are ALSO being treated as badly

It’s interesting that Angela states that ‘Education should NOT be a commodity’ …and that is ABSOLUTELY true ….what constitutes ‘education’ tho? …………Maybe we ALL need to wake up and shake up ….find ‘time’ to sift thro the crap to find that which is important …it CANNOT be ‘business as usual’ ….

WE are not ‘commodities’ either ..to be bought, sold or left to flounder …rubbed off the map

To quote AGAIN the wonderful if very brief Labour MP from MY home area … ‘We have more in common than that which divides us’

The ‘Race’ issue ….

Well in case you hadn’t noticed we are a mixed race family:D:D:D …..I hate the notion of ‘Race’ I hate the notion of ANYTHING which creates a seperation …division ….BUT there it is.   I long for the day where their won’t be ….where people are just people judged by their character rather than the color of their skin to quote Martin Luther King …..We’re a long way from that yet tho and indeed are at a point where things seem to be going backwards rather than foreward. It is therefore imperative to be intolerant of intolerance WHEREVER it resides:)

SO …..to my family ….lets start with my sons as they are the most important …..to me anyway:D:D:D. Let’s start with Matt as he is the one having the trickiest ride.

When Matt was a baby he was the most gorgeous looking child ….yes ….yes ….I know ALL parents say that ….but we would be stopped in the street by strangers to say so and were once even approached by a modelling agency but I was having NONE of that:D:D:D

After having Matt I wanted to give up work for a while ….be a stay at home Mum untill he started school ….but number one I would have had to pay bay back maternity pay received whilst on leave …and number two I was persuaded otherwise by my then husband who felt we couldn’t afford it and that it would drive someone like myself insane:D:D:D      I think he underestimated how childbirth changes a woman’s perspective tho ….your priorities …..or it did mine:D:D:D  ANYWAY so poor little Matt was packed off to a day care nursery at the tender age of 6 months old ……I HATED it …..felt ripped apart and bereft ……something I hated and regretted for a LONG time ( and I think looking back caused the first unease in our marriage) untill I finally came to the conclusion that I couldn’t change the past and needed to focus on the here and now and making the most of the ‘moments’ but I digress

So ….at 3 years old I remember Matt asking me ‘Why is no’one my color?’ ……he used to ask ALL kinds of questions as 3 year olds do:D:D:D ……but I distinctly remember this one ….they had apparantly been painting pictures of themselves at nursery and there was just pink paint to use requiring the staff to mix a different color just for him

I remember telling him …

‘Well …..if you get Daddy’s color and my color …just like paint you mix them together and get your color ….a beautiful golden brown ……and ANYWAY it’s just at nursery ….there are lots of people your color …..think of some of your cousins’

‘Oh yes ‘ said he and seemed happy with that …..phew!!!

Needless to say ….when it came to looking for a primary school ….as an only child at the time it was a priority for me to ensure he went to a school with a healthy mix of kids from a range of backgrounds …..I wanted him to be confident in mixing with others …..rich …poor …..black …..white ……skybluepink with yellow dots on …..no easy task ….as believe me ….even in relatively mixed communities you find schools populations are NOT …..BUT if there was one thing I feel  I DID get right as a parent was getting my boys into an EXCELLANT primary school with a really switched on headteacher and largely young, creative and dynamic staff team:):):):):):) ………and YES it always got ‘Outstanding’ ofsted reports but in truth that wasn’t what I was going for ….more the overall ‘feel’ of the place

So then Sam came along …….I can honestly say this was a really happy, settled period as far as the boys were concerned …..I took a full year maternity leave with Sam ( the law had changed allowing longer time ) so I was at home during Matts first year of primary school too….before I went back to work I had also managed to find day care which accommodated them BOTH ( even school pick ups …Sam only left this time last year) …this was also EXCELLANT …..the woman who owned and ran it with her husband was the same age as myself ALSO mixed race ( but didn’t look it) and had given up her career in nursing as she had been unable to find childcare she was comfortable with following the birth of her son a number of years previously. She knew EXACTLY where I was coming from and was passionate about providing quality care and education along Montesouri lines:):):):):)

Alas ……high school proved more tricky for Matt ….partly fuelled by the boys dad and myself seperating when he was just 2 weeks in …….AGAIN something I have felt TERRIBLE about but accepted you can’t change the past and it takes 2 to ensure a relationship is pulling in the same direction ….riding any storms the test is in pulling together NOT apart ……….but I digress:)

So …Matt started high school ….a different one to the majority of his primary school chums …..his family was falling apart ….and he was having to make his own way home across town by bus and let himself in …..

Needless to say I had a confused and angry kid on my hands …..angry at his father AND myself ….a heartbreaking and difficult situation …..and sadly at THAT time …..because Matt was REFUSiNG to see his Dad …it was to quote ….my problem to deal with on my own:)

So all in all its been a bit of a roller coaster ride with Matt …I certainly do believe that black kids get into more serious trouble for things which would be worked with or considered teenage ‘high jinx’ for white kids ….I KNOW having experienced both sides of the fence …and ANYONE of color is viewed as black

Matt and myself have just had a chat about it …started by him …he said

‘You know Mum ….when you’re mixed race it’s pretty tough …..white folk see you as black, black folk think you’re too white and the Muslims seem to think you’re some kind of heathen that needs saving’

‘What do YOU think’ said I

‘I’m just mixed race ……I like both sides of my family …..yep I like being mixed race …it’s everyone else that seems to have the problem and I’m not sure where I fit in’

‘Yep …just remember it’s THEIR problem …but you WILL be judged …that’s why .although it might seem unfair …you have to try to be impeccable ….don’t play to some kind of perceived negative stereotype ‘

‘Hmmmm …yeah …think I’m getting it now Mum’

‘Oh …and it’s not just mixed race young people who struggle to wonder where they fit in ….they pretty much ALL do to a greater or lesser degree ….you’ll be ok in the end’

Hmmmm he’s gone to meet his girlfriends parents today ….they’re white …he’s got to ride his own ocean now tho …and makes it clear he wants to …….I’m putting the line down …he .can swim on back if and when he feels the need:)

PS ) Sam has just read thro this …he asked so I let him ….he said that there is another aspect he would add …and that we should learn about different races history ….the true history …then we get a better understanding of each other and why we are where we are

God he’s got a wise head on young shoulders sometimes